I'm still here. All finished with chemo. Great but now what? My cancer had metastasis to my liver. That means stage IVA cancer. I had surgery to remove the part of my colon, liver, and lymph nodes that had cancer. Does that mean it's gone? When will we know?

Now, I am being told to put it all behind me. For real? I was told not  to post on Facebook by my own mother because "it's whining." Really? Do you realize that my cancer could come back full force at any moment? No, she buries her head in the sand and pretends it's all over. It will never be over for me. Endless scans for at least five years. Endless doctor's appointments. So I pretend. Pretend it's ok to everyone. Pretend I am fine. I am as positive as I can be but I also know cancer knows how to work in my body. It could come back at any time. These scans and the chemo could also shorten my life. Who knows? So, I just have to live day by day.